a friend in need is a friend indeed..

The other day.. i called a friend, a friend ive known for a long time..
i called him cause i wanted to talk to this friend about a thing..
just wanted this friend to hear me out and just give me some advice with the problem i had..
my friend did wait for me..and i didnt know that this fren was in a hurry..
coz i had to go somewhere to get my asgments and left him waiting for me..
well..then my fren left..my fren called..and asked me that was it anything urgent..
i told this person taht it wasnt that urgent..just i needed to talk to that person..

my fren did ask me what was it about..
coz i think dia ingat that i wanted to ask for help..
i was actually asking for help..but in a different way..
bukan pertolongan fizikal..but dari hati..
but then i told dia why i called and why i wanted to talk to dia..
and then tiba2 dia kata..dia tak boleh nak tlg sangat..
sebab dia tak suka get involved dengan masalah orang..
well..i was a bit shocked..tergamam..
and terdiam..and i told dia..it wont involve him..
just wanted some opinion..and just to hear me out..
tapi dia macam reluctant..then dia kata..after dia dinner..
dia akan call..but sampai harinie..takda satu panggilan..or even a msg..to tell me
why dia tak call..or just to say sorry coz tak call..
or just call me..tapi masa dah letak fon tuh pon..
i was determined la..if dia taknak..and reluctant..
i wont force..sebab takda guna..tapi i was surprised by dia punya reaction..
sebab..selama nie..aku ingat dia kawan..nak masukkan dia dalam golongan 'sahabat'
tuh memang jauh sekali la..tapi aku ingat dia kawan..
tapi dia hanya "kawan"..hanya pada nama..tapi..bukan pada hati...
bukan pada keikhlasan atau kejujuran berkawan sendiri..

dia cared too much about diri dia..and forgot that a friend in need..
is a friend indeed..sebenarnya bukan tak pernah jumpa orang mcam nie..
dah banyak kali..
tapi tuh dulu..but what amazes me and buat aku terkejut is that..
i never thot that this friend of mine would do that...
sebab kenal dah lama..and sekarang baru tahu hati budi dia..
and secara jujur and ikhlas aku katakan..
dia mencemar satu perkataan---> kawan..friend..

so people out there...
be careful dengan siapa kita berkawan..
mungkin kita ingat that someone is truly a friend..
but we'll never know..sampailah dugaan datang..
ataupun kita dalam kesusahan and memerlukan kawan...
only that time...we'll know..siapa kawan..and siapa "kawan"...

setelah sekian lama..

salam..

hahah baru dapat berblog balik..
tengah2 musim exam ni lah nak buat..takper..
just nak express sumthing on this blog..
well bukan apa..semenjak masuk university..
and jumpa all kinds of people..it is quite surprising to know that how far
a person can go to get what they want..
actually ada la this girl..tak payah mention nama la..
its just that..i think she like this guy, which happens to be my friend as well..
and this guy actually sudah berpunya..
okay lah fine lah..if bertepuk sebelah tangan tak berbunyi and stuff..
tapi tengok macam nie..
makes me wonder..dia tak rasa bersalah ke..
kacau bf orang..kacau lebih2..and expect the guy to treat her like she is his gf..
and lagi best..expects other people to treat her like she is our fren's gf..
so sorry lah babe..takda harapan okay..
cermin la diri dulu..you may be pretty and stuff..
tapi takda sincerity la..and btw i happen to know the real gf of this guy..
and she is like so baik..and penyabar and stuff...which is the complete opposit of this girl
that i am talking about..sumtimes perilaku dia..
macam nak attract attention..and cam kurang kasih sayang pon ada gak..
i dont know..but it just dont feel right la..
and i feel sad and guilty both at the same time..
nak tahu kenapa?
sebab i was imagining..if i was the one dalam position this guy punya gf..
what would i feel..and how will i cope with it..
sadness kan..but seriously rasa nak ajar je pompuan nie..
tapi tak boleh..
coz..malas cari pasal..and maybe ill ask some one else to do that dirty work for me..
hahahaha...lagi best!!

wah wah wah...

lamer gila la kan dah blog..haha..
ive been abandoning this blog for so long..
all because of my super duper hectic life lately..
but finally..suma dah hbs dah..
and now im only left with studying for finals..
alhamdulillah..hihi..
but before exam...cant wait for hari raya..seriously...
coz dah lama tak raya betol2..
but anyhow pon..this year's raya pon takan semeriah biasa..
but i am really excited to balek kampung and balek melaka..
and naseb baek all of my papers start a week after raya..
not like last year..huhu..naseb...

bila pk pasal last year..
last year cheng left me alone in uni masa i had exam..
of course la kan coz family dia kat terngganu..
this year..macam dah terbalik dah..
haha..im going back to melaka and dia tinggal in sunway
raya sorang2..lagi kesian..tapi nak buat macamana..
dia yang decide not to balek..
kalo nak balek boleh je kejap..
but he has his exam 3 days after raya..
and he thinks that its better to stay coz nanti tak blajar..
good for him gak lah kan..hihi..

i will miss him so much nanti..uwaa..haha poyo..

sampai menutup mata by acha septriasa...

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

reff:
aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

..wah..lagu ni keren banget!!sedap giler..

ive been listening to this song over2 and over again and again

since i downloaded it yesterday...sangat la jiwang..

and ...menusuk jiwa la..hihi...the music pon syahdu je...

waaaa....nak nanges..

haha..lamer betol dah tak update this blog..
actually cam takda time..thats the thing..
i havnt been checking my frenster dah about
ber week2 jugak la..hihihi..takpe..

im feeling so sad sebnanya nie..
coz cam the last batch of my frens will fly off..
to study..and paling menyedihkan is that...
in this final batch of people going off..
adli is included which makes me damn sad!!!
giler babi..memang taleh blah la sedey..
he's my bestest fren..la..besides een..
he's like an elder brother to me..and
ive always been like a younger sister yang manjer..
kakakak tak malunya ngaku diri sendiri manja...
huhu..

tapi bila ingat balek..we've been good frens for
5 years jugak dah now nie..tak sangka..
for the five years that we've been best frens..
die tak penah marah sekali pun..
or..ngamuk..and he has always been there for me..
tak kira tengah malam..or siang..
or kalo tengah belaja..
he will always be there to listen to what ever that i have to say..

and when thinking bout him going off..
makes me scared that...we wont be close frens like we used to be anymore..
sebab dah banyak dah experience mende nie..
and i wont have a shoulder to cry on lagi..
sedey..yes memang sedey..but i always have een...hehe
lupa plak kat makcik tuh...

but whatever it is..adli..
if ure reading this..thanx for the many years of wonderful
frenship and i really appreciate you..seriously...
jaga diri baek2 and dun u ever try to forget me..hihi..

its august dah..

lamer betol dah tak update this blog..
so many things dah jadi for last month..
yang dimana blog ni tak di update..hehe..
been really busy this new semester..
four lab reports in a week and also tuh tak kira assignments and etc lagi..
penat wo...tak cukup dengan itu..ada lagi ditambah dengan test2 yang sangat
la best tak terkira..hahaha...and ditambah lagi dengan masalah2 sampingan..
kadang2 rasa cam takda life betol skarang nie..
haih..but nak buat camna kan..i chose to do this..so kene la kan..
anyway..semenjak dua menjak ni..memang makin lah menampakkan lagi..
yang manusia ni memang berubah..dari pelbagai segi lah..
tapi memang kita takan boleh expect suma orang stay cam dulu kan..
sebab kita sendiri pon berubah kan..
and tambahan lagi..its sumthing normal pon...yang berbeza..
hanyalah..adakah seorang tuh berubah menjadi semakin baek..
atau semakin teruk..tapi bila cakap cam ni kan..kita kena pegi balek..
macamana yang di definekan sebagai baek..and yang macamana pulak yang
didefinekan sebagai teruk..sapa yang tentukan macamana baek..
and macamana yang teruk..so it all comes down to perpception
setiap individu itu sendiri..ape yang dirasakan baek..baek lah..
and maybe for certain people..yang baek itu teruk..or for sum others..
yang teruk itu baek..so terpulang..
tapi memang banyak la perkara yang berubah..
ada yang dulu lebih considerate..tapi sekarang..dah jadi selfish..
and hanya fikir kan diri sendiri..and ada jugak yang..
makin menghargai apa itu erti family..and ada jugak yang lebih menghargai
persahabatn..and ada jugak yang makin ingin membuktikan sesuatu..
tapi kadang2 aku tak paham apa yang dia try buktikan..
selain tuh ada yang makin jadi matang..berbanding dulu..
kira ni matang yang betol2 la..bukan setakat matang macam nak poyo2
tunjuk cam bagus je la..ni matang yang dia dah sedar yang dia dah besa..
tapi ada ppulak yang hidup makin jadi mengarut..
ada pulak yang semakin nak menunjuk..and ada jugak yang semakin menjadi opportunist..
ada pulak yang makin menjadi semakin amek berat pasal orang laen..
and ada jugak yang semakin pandai memahami orang laen..
so banyak la kesimpulannya yang aku nampak perubahan pada semua orang..
termasuk jugak diri aku..aku pon ada kelemahan..and ada jugak yang try diperbaiki..
hopefully..kita saling mengingatkan sesama sendiri..tok betolkan yang mana yang silap..
and ikot yang mana yang betoll..hehe..sekian..

crazed 9903

i havnt been updating this blog for a long time (although im on holidays)..coz i just dun feel like writing or leaving sumthing here..hehe..

anyways..last wedensday which was on the 12/7 i organized a gathering for crazed 9903, with the help of my fren marisaa..hihi...i really enjoyed coz almost everyone that i invited managed to come..haha..sonok gila jumpa sumer orang again...at first ada gak yang orang2 yang tak confirm kan awal2 datang and at that time dah cuak giler coz i was afraid there wasnt enough food for all of us..but alhamdulillah everything went well and makanan suma cukup for everyone...siap ada lebih2 lagi..hehe..

i really shud thank mars, amy, hanafi and een coz they came early and helped with a lot of things!!
i wouldnt be able to do it on my own..naseb baek gila ada dorang..
the rest yang came later pon did help(except for a few girls yang taktau malu yang datang my house didnt even bother to salam and meet my mom..)..and thanx to those who helped..yang tak tlg pon..i dun mind..korang showed up and respect my mom pon dah berbaloi..jangan salah paham lak eh..those exceptions for the ones in the bracket adalah untuk beberapa orang sahaja yang datang my house tak jumpa my mom..how rude!! yang laen tuh takda masalah kay!!hehe...jangan salah paham lak eh...but papehal pon..sape yang makan cili of coz lah terasa pedas nya kan!!!hihihihihi....

i didnt manage to take any pic coz cam was very busy suma..
tapi i had fun la..cam after the thing habes kan..cam ada this satisfaction tau..
although i was tired and all..but i didnt manage to go to sleep straight away coz cam tah..
happy sangat...although memang masa hbs tuh rasa cam nak landing atas katil and just doze off...but cam tak leh lelap..so i ended up watching the teevee with my dad..we watched spanglish..haha...cam kecewa gila tgk cite tuh..i mean like cam..tah..cam not worth it je tgk..hihi..its not that funny pon..and takdala best sangat...naseb baek tak tgk kat wayang dulu...coz masa i went out kat wayang dulu ada gak berangan nak pegi tgk..naseb tak pegi tgk..kalo tak wasted je rm 10..leh pegi makan mcd ke..haha..merapik je..

hehe kayla..thats all for my entry now..papai!!